It seems to be an extremely interesting topic to me, wasting time that is. It seems to continually come my way. I put my time in energy into things that i want to accomplish and do but all I get is nothing in return. When all of a sudden did this string of bad luck start to take a hold of me? I keep telling myself why do I even bother to keep trying for things when I never get rewarded for them? and I have no idea. The only thing I can think of is maybe I’m still hoping it will go through, it will work. I’m trying to keep moving forward and “tomorrow’s a brand new day” but when does disappointment beat you down so much that the weight is unbearable. Now little disappointments are huge and everything hurts more and more. My whole body feels heavy and people saying “I’m sorry” just hurts more. Some seem to think that once you leave your abuser things get better. All I have seen is things get harder for me and my abuser get off scott free. No karma. Nothing. I really thought I was done with my major disappointment when I left that house. Now it seems that its keeps coming back each time more worst then the last.